Sebastian reached out, unable to help himself, and took the boy’s wrists. "Hey. Take it easy." The archangel tilted his head, smiling as a thought came to him. "You took quite a beating."
He couldn’t risk hospitals. There were too many questions; not to mention, anything could be lurking behind a seemingly nice face. Instead, Sebastian had a solution of his own. White light left him and seeped into Darren’s skin- healing whatever damage the bastards had done to him. Only, Darren wouldn’t see it.
Instead, Sebastian thought out his conversation with the boy- projecting the images of him standing before the boy with a worried expression- hands completely to himself. "Of course I did. No one likes a bully."
Sebastian took a step back, hands falling back by his sides. He wondered if Darren felt where he’d suddenly been in his mind. If anything, he may have felt a faint likeness to a headache. "What do you mean?"
The archangel swallowed, eyes burning as he connected the pieces. The boy had been in the alley, the last place he needed to be, and he didn’t look out of place. "You don’t have anywhere else to go…do you?"
Something was off. He felt weird— he had a dull head ache. Which couldn’t be that abnormal, considering he almost had his head bashed in, along with some serious oxygen deprivation. So, he didn’t question it. There was no reason to.
“Yeah, yeah, I guess so,” Darren said slowly, frowning a little at the other. “There’s really not much you can do, though. They’re everywhere— and you can’t save me from everything. I have to learn to live somehow, right?”
Darren didn’t say anything for a few moments, though. He could lie— he could tell him had somewhere to go, but he had a shitty job, and couldn’t afford much. He could tell him he was over reacting— he could joke around about it. But he just— couldn’t.
"It’s hard to get a job when you don’t have a place to sleep," Darren said simply, rubbing his arms. "It’s hard to get a place to sleep when you don’t have a job. It’s a vicious cycle, really."
"I don’t need you to be anything else besides happy and healthy, sweetheart," Sebastian told him honestly. "You don’t need to apologize for anything else, okay? I promise you," he said with a nod.
"I can’t be happy if I’m watching the man I’m in love with be unhappy, and flirt around with some other guy, because I’m not healthy enough to give him what he needs." Darren told him simply, closing his eyes.
Sebastian felt Darren remain tense in his arms. His first reaction was to let him go but Darren said he wanted this- a friend, Sebastian. So he stayed in position until he felt Darren relax against him. Rubbing his arms gently, Sebastian pressed his face against Darren’s hair and let out a deep sigh.
Darren sighed right back at him, before he slowly moved to wrap his own arms around him. “I’m sorry,” He mumbled, before he moved to nuzzle up into him. “I’m sorry I’m broken. And I’m sorry I’m not what you wanted me to be. But I’m trying, I really am. I just need you to try, too.”
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Sebastian wrapped his arms around Darren, keeping him close in his lap. He didn’t ask if he was okay or if he was uncomfortable. Pressing a kiss to the top of his head, he waited for Darren to relax.
At first, it was really, really bad. He felt suffocated, and he felt like he should run. But, instead, he just took a few deep breaths, and pushed the feeling down. He could do this— he could be close to someone. He wanted to be close to Sebastian.
So, after maybe five or ten minutes, Darren relaxed, closing his eyes.
Sebastian held his arms out. “Come here. I mean- is this okay?” He asked, biting his bottom lip with uncertainty. Sebastian only knew how to help Darren, how to be only be himself by physical contact.
Darren hesitated, before he nodded, moving to just cuddle himself up in his arms. He didn’t wrap his own arms around Sebastian—he just— balled up in his lap.
Sebastian agreed with a nod. They were much like strangers under one roof. “I know things have been weird but I expected much. I mean, you’ve changed. You’re different and that’s not your fault. I never expected you to come back and be the same, not even a little bit,” he explained before shrugging. “Whatever you need, you know I’m here. I’ll try to help you however I can.”
"I have changed. Just a little— but no one’s saying it can’t go back to the way it was before, except you." Darren told him, frowning. "What I need is for you to interact with me. I need you to treat me like you used to, I need you to talk to me, I need you to let me talk to you. I need you. Okay? Just you. And I—I get that all this changed you, but I just— I need you. Okay? I need my friend back. I need the guy I fell in love with back."
"I’ll do all of those things as long as you need me to. This isn’t a race. There’s no time limit of you being here. I’m not going to kick you out or anything if you’re still figuring things out. This is.. I mean- I want to help you but I know I can’t fix you. You have to do that on your own," he said with a sad smile.
"I am still figuring things out," Darren said, shaking his head. "But I want us to be friends again. Because whatever this is— it’s not— it’s not friends. It’s two strangers living under one roof, and it sucks." He said softly. "And I know— I know I have to fix me. But I’ve —- I need help, Sebastian. I need you."
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- Sweet Souther Comfort- Buddy Jewell
- Boys Round Here- Black Shelton
- Black or White- Glee Cast
- Don’t Let the Sun Go Down On Me- Garth Brooks
- Follow Me- Uncle Kracker
- Beauty- Starkid/Cast of Starship
- Live and Let Die- Guns N’ Roses
- This is the New Year- Glee Cast
- To Be A - Starkid/H.M.B. Cast
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"Darren I don’t expect you to pay any attention to me," Sebastian told him with a shake of his head. "You’re here to work on yourself and to feel a bit more comfortable being in a house with me," he reminded him. "I’m not looking for anything from you, you know that right? I just want you to get better and to feel better. That’s why I’ve stayed away. I know we bit don’t have our feelings in check. So we don’t mesh."
"But I am comfortable being in the house with you." Darren told him, leaning back a little. "Sebastian, if I wasn’t comfortable, I would have left a long time ago. I mean, I’m only ever comfortable with you. I only ever feel safe when I know I can call out for you, and you’ll come running. I like knowing that even if something does happen, you’ll be there, and you’ll stop it." He said.
"I love that. I love that you’d do that for me— but I don’t want you to. I want to be normal. Right? And I— I do feel better. And I really, really want to be normal, Sebastian. So I want you to talk to me."
"I know you don’t want to talk a lot so I give you your space," Sebastian pointed out. "You already staying here for my own sake, I can’t keep on suffocating you," he said with a shrug before scrunching his nose up. "And maybe he flirts with me but it’s nice. I don’t know why seeing as he’s seen me at my absolute worst when you were gone.. But it feels good to be appreciated..noticed," Sebastian admitted softly.
Darren just stayed silent for a little while, just looking at Sebastian. “Sebastian, when I left, the only place I even thought of coming to was here. The only person I wanted to be with was you.” Darren told him slowly. “And you— you’ve let me stay here. You’ve let me stay here, and you’ve taken care of me, even though I’m fucked up. And I’m so thankful for that, and I appreciate it so much. I do, I really do. And I’m— I’m sorry I didn’t make you feel that way.”
"I’ve finally been pulled out of my unhealthy hase, Darren. Yeah, things are tense between us but you’re alive. I can breathe again and I can pay Philip back for all of his help," Sebastian explained. "And for the record, I talk to Philip because he wants to talk to me, because he cares about me."
"I am alive. And I’m around all the time, but we still don’t talk. And I—I know I don’t want to talk sometimes, but still." Darren grumbled, folding his arms over his chest. "Beside, he flirts with you all the time. I see it. I don’t see how you can’t."
"I wasn’t better off without you. I was worse- you could ask Philip," he mumbled, looking down at his lap. "I was- I just wasn’t me."
"You seem to be perfectly happy with Phillip now," Darren grumbled, shaking his head. "You’d rather be with him than talk to me, now."